Y3:03 AM
im so disappointed with myself.
things arent pretty these days. i keep hurting others. i have lingering doubts though. i am at fault, probably. i really dislike arguing, honestly. i might be the one who started the whole issue. but thats because i really do not want to lose a bestfriend.
we arent as close as we were. and that awfully sucks.
this is really heart-rending. quite a number of my lovely ones have decided to go to separate ways. probably it's me. i know i shouldnt be dispirited but considering the fact that ive lost many, i guess ive lost the momentum to stand on my own.
i am certain that i did gain quite a number of friends when i lost some. but it made me ponder. why the need to lose, to gain???
things will be better.
at least i hope it will. perplexed by many conflicting situations, i guess im pretty much bewildered and confused. honestly, the bickering we had yesterday, sucked.
okay azmi just told me that i have the misteri as my hate tagger,
too. sadly, i think im excessively concerned with the problems im facing. i will treat you like a sadist. ive learnt from the oprah winfrey show that a person critisizes cos he/she is disatisfied lah. thats why, we should all feel sorry for him or her.
everyone,
AWWWWWWoh well. im done for now.
about time i get back to the books.
love,
sheikha
