the nightingale sings gentle lullabies

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Y5:10 PM

Biology for the past 2 months, serious intensive revision usually till 3am, zillion over notes villi bacteria flagellum genetic engineering 1-cell thick epithelium nicotine tar etc, stayed back for quick revision & to have questions solved, tys tys tys, and what did I get? A blasted Bgrade.

Told you I'll do better. Only that I improved by a mark.

On a lighter note, my sister's pregnant.

Ciao

Y9:42 PM

It's a Friday and usually I busy myself with text messages, arranging plans for the upcoming busy weekend. Scheduled for beloved friends to watch movies, buy birthday presents, meet up just to take a breather. And usually I'll text A be it when the named is over the moon or just plain devastated. Usually it's on a Friday when I shake my legs, exhausted from the hectic week and just basically moan to my mother and siblings.

But the only difference is that these things never really happen anymore.

What's been pretty much the same is that I'm drained out.

Thanks to syed isa aljuffry, the potential politician who gives great advices
(except for the banning of SI thats absurd). Burns my eye (: You takecare too, you.
Thanks to suhaila alias hassan for listening and being there, I luv you.

I desperately wish to do tarawih prayers once I can fast.

Ciao

Y1:04 PM

Dearest dearest dearest all,

(: (: (::::::::::

Many three smileys w the third as the cacat zillion-eyed one for all cos the week's been great. Ok wth, the week just bloody started ahahahahaahahaha. Ok, the past few days have been great, two thumbs up very much yay!!

Well well, prelims are finally frigging over yo. That's one of the best best very best news of the month la! But it's a major wake up call too actually cos it's the first paper of Olevels in 41 days of today. It's quite scary that time really did pass by god dammned quickly. It felt like just yest I was going arghhhhhh prelims soon!!!! & today, prelims over. Tomorrow olevels, next day over. Wohuhhhhaaaaaaaaaaa!!! Ok, I sounded like a beruk. Ok no, more like een, hahahahahahahahahahahahahahah. I still luv you la!

So I'm expecting better results compared to e ones I obtained for myes bcos I friggin sat down & study la. It's been v v exhausting to be memorising & revising whatever notes at home, otw to school, at school, after school. Yes la, ironic as it seems my brain never stops working la. Even when I was making my way home with dearest friends, I kept thinking abt the questions I did for the earlier papers & whether I've gotten them right or not. Boo, I wish to see how damaged my brain is. It's all worked up ok, got smoke. Hahahahha I'm so high & random today. Eevan shared the same sentiment. Eevan is ivan btw, ahh.. teary-eyed.., reminds me of DIA show. Hikmah is still pretty good :)

Wish that some crazy miracle that can make me get a passing mark for phyP2. I really think I flunked it up down left right. Tough shit. I think it's bcos I slept v late the night before. Haiyoh, I teared a little aft the paper thinkin how many marks I was gna lose due to stupid lame mistakes like not changing the units and being lazy to listen to mschia making the announcement abt some f-ed up errors. I knw I cud have done better but still, it's done & over with so tawakal. Not really confident for amaths especially bcos I kept telling myself aft both papers how much energy I've wasted just practising the questions. Very disappointing cos the papers sucked. Aye, more tuition lessons. I guess I've been concentrating too much on emaths. But that's a good thing cos I think I'll be able to do better for emath than how I did last year. Plus points for me! English was pretty boo I guess. My energy was channelled to the idea of wargh going back and sleep. Hahahahahhahaahaha both passages were kental shitz la. P2 was simple but I was just.. not in the mood for it. I kept thinkin of emaths till I thot about probabilty when there was a para or two about probability on dice and whatever nots. Ah, brain, I still love you ok. Just do me proud for Os I'll be v happy.

The others were ok, chem P2 was quite diff but.. better than expected. I thot it'd be a little worse, a paper which I cannot even attempt or anything similar to that. But well, at least it's zillion times better than phy. Biology was hahahahaha, pardon me for that but I din quite study like mad for bio. The recent Sat was spent at home doing nothing major and stressful like waddya know.. television! Wahahahaha!! & the net. And a lot of slots I set aside for sleeping. Lol, tired ok.. 3-4 measly hours of sleep per day can make one go insane la. I think I did prove that to ivan hahahahaha, he said I was crazy. Hmm.

Very worried for my hmt papers. Like, what's been up with hml la. I hope I din fail it or whatever. Please God dearest, a good B-grade will make me smile from ear to ear toe to toe hand to hand finger to finger. Nose to nose. Hhahahahahahaha

Oh yes, I haven't been updating so I have yet to bring up the Pope & Islam topic. Actually what the hell, I'm not gna bring it up cos well.. I'd like to save my energy and not be a very rebellious nyonya. I think I made syz happy by saying I was a nyonya la kan, lol. But anyhow, I just feel that perhaps the Pope shudnt have even brought up whatever statement he made in e first place. Yes fine the statement he made did not reflect what he said but well, it's zillion times better not even saying it, no? Just look at the aftermath of it all. Imagine; I passed a comment from a friend of yours, eh you look like shit and your behaviour sucks pretty well too. That's what my friend said. No intentions whatsoever. Yes, sure. I'm sure you wud just want me to just keep it to myself and just shut the gab instead of conveying the message from your friend that hey, you look like shit and your behaviour sucks dammed well. Sighe really, we shud be respecting one another's religions not setting up a fiery tensed atmosphere ard the world. I mean, obviously the Muslims will get upset & infuriated. I mean, who wudnt?? But I guess they've gone overboard by doing ridiculous actions due to sheer anger all bottled up in them. Well, I apologise for my Muslim brothers&sisters. World peace, not war.

Ah again, I said I wudnt blog about it but I did. -_-

Hmm let me guess what I shall do after this, AHH SLEEP HAHAHAHAHA. Ok ok views on SI. Hahahaha, yessah! Hady won (: Of course la his voice is very much better than Jon's. He's cute too, ahhhh plus points!!!!! Hahahahahhaahaaha, ok am very tired alrd. Wah I just discovered that ion is a taik girl ): Hahahahahahahahahhahahahahaa NURAIN YOU DIAM EH. LIKE SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY SERIOUS. Don't tag about it, don't whatever about it. NOTHING OK ION. !I'm serious tau ): SAME TO YOU TOO ZAFBAF & BEE.

Will blog some other time, gdday all. Hugs!

P.S-

1)
Used to seeing black and white
Never really in between
Waiting on the love of my life
To come into my dreams
Everything is shades of gray
Never really blues or green
Needed someone else to turn to
Someone who could help me learn to see
All the beauty that was waiting for me

You, you put the blue back in the sky
You put the rainbow in my eyes
A silver lining in my prayers
And now there's colour everywhere

You put the red back in the rules
Just when I needed it the most
You came along to show you care
And now there's colour everywhere
Everywhere

2) Glad that everything's A-Ok (: A, Ok! Love you girls very very very much, please not another one of those? Teehee. And I'm vvvvvv glad you sweeties for once listened to me & talked it over. Hugs. And kisses!

3) WAHA! TOBLERONE.

Ciao.

Y10:49 PM

Well hi,

Prelims next week onwards for about three weeks. Yes, I'm panicking like a crazy tak betul mob already now. Prelims then Olevels. That's pretty fast if you think about it. 50+ more days to Os la omg la. A year ago I was happily playing a fool & not even bother about final year examinations and gee now I'm studying for like 12 friggin hours per day. That's very scary btw, seriously. Nevertheless, I still feel that I need more time to mug. So far, I'm done with chem revision and have already attempted several prelim papers from other schools. Have not been revising bio cos recently biology seems to be turning me off la ): Everytime I try to do some revision for bio, ugh la I just cudnt. & honestly I'm v v v worried for bio. It's like I revise like want to die already also still a lot to cover. There's no end to bio revisn and that really sucks la damnit.

Last few chapters for phy before doing lots of tys questions like crazy. Am panicking for emaths also cos I haven't been practising much on emaths, die. Did tys tho for the past 2 days and had a 4h tuition session asking zillion questions la ok. Lol, I think the other students were like that close to screaming and pulling my hair.. erm or at least my tudung lollllllllll. Anw tuition teacher gave me nanyang high girls sch's prelim paper. I was stunned la ok, all these high2 school. She's gna pass me prelim papers from RI&RGS tomorrow. Die la seriously. Nevermind, prelim standard is f-ed up so shud try!! Go sheikha.

Hml prelims this coming monday. Am very nervous for it really. I've got to do well. I mean, it's prelims la hello. If I can't reach the average standard for hml, then how am I supposed to do well for Os. Omg, jitters.

I've got several plans after Os, muahahahahhahahahahahahahahaha! I seriously am impatient and so am looking forward for the last day of Olevel paper. Imagine the faces. The atmosphere. The shouts the screams. Oh gosh, it'll be priceless. Everyone of us candidates will jump and hug one another like madness. Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I cannot wait for that!!!!

Newsflash still, it's not even the beginning of Os & I'm already dreaming for the aftermath. I don't care, after prelims I shud relax at least for two days(tsk). I shall dine at swensens/seoul garden/anywhere except fastfood restaurants duh lol. Su, up for it? (=

Mumsie's birthday tomms. I don't think there'll be any birthday cake cos tsk la every 27th of every month got cake. Hahahaha, happy birthday mama dearest i luv you despite the constant "reminders" to study. Madness, but I believe they're all from the heart yes yes yes? Hahaha, luv you & mama sudah tuekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! ehehehehheheheheheehehehehehehehe, may fairies watch over you (:

Anws, glucks all for prelims. Really, I know everyone needs all the luck each can get so let us all just exchange lucks? Teehee, let's workhard for prelims just like how I predict everyones gna mug like shit for Os ok?? WARGH PRELIMS MEANS FCKLOADS TO ME COS I'M AIMING FOR JC SO PLS GOD DONT LET ME FLUNK PRELIMS PLEASE PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY PLEASE. I luv you.

Take care all, God bless.

P.S-

1)
Hugs:&Kisses sealed
with lucks to Beloved;
suhaila
nurain
shelly
4e2 lovelies
union
nccgraduatinggirls
syed isa
luthfi
farid

3As.

2)
To whom it may concern.

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your light?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

If it still really matters.

Ciao.

Y12:33 AM

Dearest all,

So glad this week's set of events is finally over. !Very glad.

Career seminar on tuesday and it's undeniably true that every single one of the graduating students looked gorgeous & charming. But it's funny how just on one simple day you can actually discover a whole new meaning to office wear. Lol. Met up w the girls earlier than usual and gee, all of them looked so pretty (: Su looked like a business woman. We got very excited even tho we knew we were developing zillion blisters. Tsk ok, behind that haha laughters and confident walk, there were zillion bloody effing painful blisters. Dammed the heels.

Teachers looked impressed with our outfits hahaha and it was adorable how mr chong said "Waaa sheikha! you look all ready for an interview! And a date!" Mr chong, please. Spare me, at least during career seminar can?? He's been laughing a lot lately. I guess he's been feeling rather joyous for the past few days and I'm glad seeing him ecstatic really. I hope he'll continue behaving like that cos it makes me happy. Ok, got ourselves the files and then proceeded to the hall(all that after purchasing plasters!!!). The talks from different institutions were okay I guess. Hahaha there was a point of time when I was busy checking the schedule for that day for every 5 minutes la ok. The talks were beneficial in some way or another.

Break for us and a chance to roam around the hall to view the different booths. I am interested in theatre arts, hmm. I know, some of my friends questioned me "Eh serious ah you can act?" -_- Wth, I felt so underachieving. Anw, I felt that ain shud be an accountant since she's a very systematic person and that she'll carry out tasks assigned really well. Like on the other day, she took many pictures for me. Hahahahahahaha

Overall career seminar was great since we got to play dress up and get ourselves tiny little red polka dot growths on our toes foot feet heel you name it. Hahaha don't you think that sounded better than blisters? I really thought so.

Wednesday was spent talking about how pretty everyone was the day before. I regretted talking about certains stuffs tho. If only I can turn back time. 4E/5N students were supposed to check their lab whatevernots after that and I got pretty irritated, actually no, very irritated by certain people. Ugh, annoying self-centered selfish people. And I so effing am in luv with malay people la ok, so what if they're malay? WHAT, do malay people really have unstable f-ed up hormones or germs or madcow madcat madbull or whatever disease????? Wth, lay down a list of what your blood consists of next time la and I won't be surprised if you have a newly named whatever blood in you. Wth la. OOOOO I'm this I'm that oooooooOOOOOOOOOOOO. Pfft.

Next up, teacher's day celebration. Was great I thought. Most of the songs I knew and I just had to become a temporary broken radio. Temporary being the operative word btw. Ehehehe! Many looked so dead and wth la if you din sing along & din even bother to have fun then do not blame it on the event la ok. I thought the peer leaders did a great job and mr yongieyong & ms heng too (lol lol insert hanis is one of the pl students muahaha). There was a small range of songs of different languages tho. I thot cikgu karmin & the other cikgu sang really well. Oh yes of course!! The boys sang a song from peterpan!!! AHHH. Sheila, shirleyK got really hyped up when they heard mimpi yang sempurna la ok!!! I was too of course, and I sang along toooooooooooooooo!

Anw hahaha ion dressed like eeyoreeeee. I thought she looked really cute la ok. With the ribbons and everything (yala everytime i need to re-tie the bloody ribbons also lol). The others became fairies and everything sweet. I was so desperate in becoming something anything everything. I felt so hopeless that I ended up wearing a zara red-white striped long sleeved tee & pants. Hahahahahaha I was supposed to be minnie mouse mickey mouse whoever mouse la ok. Ain reminded me that minnie mouse wears polka dotted bajus hahahahaha but mine was simply horizontal! Hahaha sheikha mouse laaaaaa. Hahahahaha I amuse myself sometimes. Ok so anyway, of course I brought little2 accessories so that others can distinguish what disney character I was. Hahahaha the mickey hand! !! And an orange mickey watch nees got me from an overseas trip, whichhhhhhhhhhhhhhh wasn't working -_- It was 7.05am everytime I glanced at it, hahaha.

Haziq was really cute with the mickey ears hahahaha!! He borrowed my mickey hand for some competition/picture taking I think. Hahaha, adorable monkie. Everyone got so fascinated with the mickey hand la ok till at one pt of time, I thot I lost it and got really hysterical afterwhich I discovered that one of my classmates actually was blissfully unconcerned with my plea to return the mickey hand if found!!!! Can you believe it. And that classmate was William. Tsk. It's a family collection from overseas ok! Lol I sound whiny.

Nurain syakirah and iyliee didnt effing wait for me la ok. After the constant reminders not to leave school unless they've seen me! Tsk, such friends la kan. Gigit your faces both can????????? !Tsk. Celebration at Mr Chong's after that. He seemed really touched and I'm glad he was. Very ex ok his presents. Yummy cake nevertheless! Hugs for yining <3

Syaz, sorry I didn't ans your call. My phone was on silent mode and I just checked it. 130am. Hee

Prelims are coming & I'm losing the momentum to keep studying. Try harder sheikha. 2 more quick revision for phy before I start practising TYS like mad. Left with organic chemistry for chem & lots of memorising work needed to be done. Emath practice!!!!!! AMath!! HML!!!!! GEOG, SS. UH SHIT IT'S COMING BACK. 9AM TMRW.

Suhaila alias hassan, I luv you. Great KFC date we had earlier today. & not to worry about what happened cos I know how you feel. Same piece of shite, and thanks for listening really.

P.S-

1) Was so great last time when all we had was, fun. Little matters like these won't even break us apart. What's happening really? Remember once when we actually questioned one another what if we were to have a tiff? The ans, remember?? We told ourselves that we'd sit down and talk it over. Well I guess things are easier said than done. Perhaps statements shudnt be made without genuine thoughts backing them up. We were careless in choosing our words? Then we were all careless too when we made a deal at my house that we'd be friends forever. I thought it'd happen even tho it sounded rather cliche. I wish for once, you'd all listen to me. Let's talk it over, everything will be better. Unless if our friendship doesn't mean anything, to anyone of you. Whatever it is, you know it is to me.

2)
This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy that nothing could save me
But it's the only thing that I have

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

3) As far as I'm concerned, I'm done with the fainting. & toblerone.

Goodnight all.

Ciao.