the nightingale sings gentle lullabies

ah, la peaceful melodies Y

Y8:35 PM

Selamat Eidul Fitri all :)

Thanks to those who texted me during malam raya wishing me a gorgeous raya!! But I cudnt reply to all cos my I've been texting too much lately so zillion trillion gafillion bazifidiaoidilanlion apologies really :) The 20 over of you sweeties! Nevertheless, have a great raya & SETAN DAH KELUARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

& heh, I had no new baju raya this year. But but but! I did manage to dig out a new baju kurung that I've never worn in my life just now :) Plenty of them still so no worries! If you're wondering why I'm not visiting my relatives now, well let's just say I'll be a politician one day and ban national service (if you still have no idea, my brother had to rush back to camp laaa) Quite sad actually, he was singing raya songs so loudly an hour ago wishing he could just stay with us. :(

Perhaps 10 dollar notes have been overly used this raya cos I've been getting those, lol. 5 or 6 houses only for today and I'm already shagged. Gee, all these collection ... hahahahahahahaha

Oh yes, daddy bought me a new digi cam cos mine just HAD to become like a taik shitz during grad day(yes if you saw me pissed during grad day) Canon!!! ((::: Ahhhhhhhhhh, I have one of the best daddies in the whole wide worldeeeeee, therefore,,,,,, pictures will be up! !!!!!!!!!!!! !!! !!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!

After Olevels.

Y9:46 PM

omgggggggg what a taikfaceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

ok check, what a fucked up egoistic asshole.

that's more like it, like SERIOUSLY. and hahaha i cannot believe i just said that. syaz and afee, when you told me long ago repeatedly that i was too kind, eh, i should have listened. :)

and eh, that wasnt my ego

Y5:46 PM

I am so awesome I surprise myself many times. Like how I have not been preparing for the biggie Os today. Like how I glued myself to the television watching Prison Break. Like how I AM IN FRONT OF THE COMPUTER AND NOT RESUMING TO THE NEXT EPISODE. The series is fab, please all must watch. Hell to CSI, not that I ever loved that piece of crap. I guess P.B is as good as 24 and just so you know, michael scofield is my boyfriend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ya it's true I'm attached, hahaha

Y8:40 PM

if only i could just smother myself with bottles of coke & melted toblerone :(

ARGH HDWHASBKDJBAjlbJABFUIWQEGFPQQWGFIOQFGQAKQW!hwdi9ho!!!!!!!!!!!

YEARS DAMN IT.

Y12:00 PM

All 42 4e2 loves please watch (credits jasmine)

OK TEARY EYED TEARY EYED.

Y6:40 PM

Finally after much procrastination done, I had finally purchased myself a new pair of white school shoes!! Yes! Wide wide grin that accompanies the notion that it's so cheappppp!!! Very very glad. Tomms is graduation day & I'll be saying goodbye to fellow dearies & teachers in my new pair of white shoes!! Hehehe. Was supposed to get a new pair months ago cos well it's pretty obvious how dilapidated my previous pair was. Actually I was hoping to wear it till the last day of Os but nyeh, I just discovered a teeny fugly hole on one of them. It won't last long laaaa so please don't misunderstand my aim of getting a new pair lol.

Ah great, I've forgotten to buy cards for beloved teachers :( Syukran to someone for hurrying ever so much, I know lah your kaki panjang right walk so fast and leave me behind, tsk tsk! I'm supposed to buy pens too!! Nvm, tmrw I shall get them before grad day la can.

Ok as many of you have gossiped about (i know you have like you knoww sheikhaaaa) me not being able to enter JC, well well.. I'm pondering more about the pros :) I'm wondering the aftermath of Olevels and how I'll be spending those free days watching television, using the net during unearthly hours, repeating over and over again on how unbelievable it is that secondary education is really over. Ahhhhhhh, I'll be free :) Let's start with dec hollies, goshhhh I think I'll job hunt or just get a ticket to fly overseas! Ahhhhh, madness! Last Olevel paper is on 20th Nov which is about a month's time dude. I'll go shopping with lovelies (that includes you hanis please thank you). Ah, perhaps I shud start tutoring little kiddies too. Yes la!

Graduation tomms will be very emo. I suppose I will cry like a baby, hello graduation ok. Bumpy rollercoaster of emotions for four frigging years. Ok note to all, please do bring camera/cameraphones to take pix with people!! Ah my friends, I will miss you. Ok teary-eyed. Newsflash for a minute, the past years have been one hell of a ride. Friends who came and go. Friends who stayed and eventually went. Pretty heart-rending thinking about how we stuck together like glue(not literally).Though it's pretty obvious on how we've gone on our separate ways even before school ends, you do know that I miss you lots. Sharing of top secrets perhaps is never an option already now that we're that far apart now. I miss you and I wish you'd knew I had a nightmare that you told me off with that secret. I wish you'd know all the latest happenings. I wish all those shitty shits never really occured but they did. I miss you.

4e2 lovelies, two years :) The jellyfish, the class walk with late misspeh, the cursing of swearing on how pathetic it is that we kept having different amath and bio teachers, being the champ for english interclass debate competition!!!! It was unexpected & never came across our minds but we did earn ourselves that title. Together with late misspeh :) Sometimes I can feel she's watching over me, sprinkling shiny goodluck fairy dusts on me and 42 4express2 hearts. Thanks ma. This is not the end tho, we'll all work hard together till Os is finally over okiedokie? Then we'll organize zillion class movie outings, bbq pit, chalet etc. I love you 42 hearts and I want a big hug :(

Ncc land girls, :( Tata I will miss you trillions. We'll meet up often ok and just go bonkers. Oh yes, must give me latest updates on life too when we meet ok. I love you. Shima also, ahhhhhh my part B cutie partner aka kebaya partner. Ah, I always feel drunk with you around. Will miss you love. Honest. Hanies, I wanted to hug you on wednesday! :( But cudnt. Miss you much but I feel quite secured that we've made a deal to spend lotsa time tgether aft my Os. So hugs for that!!

Tomorrow's gonna be such a depressing day la ok. Dahlah nak nangis laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I shall leave you dearies with this. To all my graduating loves.
Esp to rabiatul adawiyah, zafirah mustazah, nursyazana abu bakar.

Say Goodbye
by S Club 7

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets

Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner, no regrets

Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world, I'd make this last

-

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

1 - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Repeat 1

La, la, la, la?Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la?We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Ciao.

Y1:39 PM

I've been waitin' for so long
For something to arrive
For love to come along

Now our dreams are comin' true
Through the good times and the bad
Ya, I'll be standin' there by you

And baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven.

Still the best :) & Hady's voice is sexy! Drools. I surprise myself sometimes. Like how I'm listening to Sg's OWN song you give me wings and how I'm really in love with it bcos Hady Mirza sang it fab. And how I will surprise myself too when I receive my Olevels results next year that will allow me to enter a good JC and not miss JC entrance by one blasted dammed point. Just you wait.

Ciao

Y6:16 PM

I am so so sad and I wish late MissPeh's still around.

Ciao.

Y6:43 PM

I've realised I need friends like suhaila and may in my life to pick me up when I fall, when I feel like giving up. I need people like them to always push me hard to do well when I'm shagged, tired, exhausted whatever. I need people like them to make me realise how lucky I am to get heart-wrenching grades now. Prelims grades haven't been great but what's for sure is, we'll all work tonggang-tonggek together to get excellent grades okie?

Yes, and I need syed cos he cheered me up when I got a blasted D7.

Ciao.

Y11:34 AM

Fact vs Fiction.*

I'd choose fiction anytime. I'd be able to stretch my wide expanse of thoughts, discover another irony in a fictitious genuine life I never knew where I learn imaginative characters whose unfeigned concern touched others and whose hearts were made of 24-carat pure gold, think out of the box with no rules, regulations or whatsoever, idolize a character without being labelled a pseud and basically to have my thoughts and imaginations unconstrained from several limitations and to self-rule.

On another note, I'd have to exchange true friends and gorgeous brilliant moments with a lugubrious one to curse ncc for not organisizing a god dammed overseas trip after Olevels. Damn, I shall skip that. I don't mind indulging myself with peaches by the beach with my inamorato. It's been months since I last used that term. I miss so many people. If only they shared the same sentiments.

*Applicable to fictional stories(from books) & songs.
Fact here refers true stories or songs.

Ciao.