Thursday, April 06, 2006
Y10:19 PM
I rue the day I started liking thee ):
Perhaps I do not matter. It's funny how one second you're all sweet&lovely and the other make me all.. moody? & I'm not surprised that you have the ability to make me show everyone my weakness.
Not good.
Syaz said I was being paranoid. ): I'm not syaz..
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I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
that it didn't hurt me when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
and deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe
carino mio, my world becomes so empty
my day's are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain.
&PurestOfPain - SonByFour
EYE. LOVE. THIS. SONG.
MUST. GO. DOWNLOAD. 3 As. M.U.S.T.
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Isa's gonna be discharged tomorrow. Yay. I thot it wudnt be THIS soon.. I planned to visit him on saturday but, .. :(
He'll be back in school prolly next week. So I shall just "visit" him at school. -_- Yeah I know uh lame uh. HE told me that. Duhhhhhhh....................... Anw, you won't be reading this but get well soon & do take care of yourself. No strenuous activities. MUST BREATHE IN AND OUT. Do not make me worryyy... ): Love.
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I kept thinking.. What IF it's already time for me to leave school..? What if it's already time for me to leave my 3As..? What if it's already time to leave my 42 lovelies of 4e2? What if it's already time to leave my 3rd mother & mr chong..?
Yes I want my Olevels to be over.. But I cannot stand thinkin that one fine day I will wake up on a normal school weekday with no school to attend to. No more silent reading.. As much as I hate it, there's not gna be anymore stupid morning exercise.. No more cursing & swearing the teacher who has something against me.. No more ain flipping her panjang ponytail trying to make me jealous.. No more afeeabeeane trying to spot me flirting even tho fat hope abt that.. No more ane' getting all excited when I get jealous over something or someone.. No more abeeaneafee getting excited when I *faintsfaintsfaints*.. No more teasing darren with yaxiu.. No more screaming obliviously at susu.. No more of nurul ain jerking while sleeping.. No more of "let's do this for miss peh!".. No more.. complains from teachers.... No more stupid jokes and pranks from the boys.. No more fun times with yi ning.. No more stupid tues thurs running in the hall.. No more of being scolded by teachers for not doing homework(ooo i love that).. No more Mr Chu and his ERH!.. No more ncc trainings.. No more ocassional talks with dearest tahirah.. No more wicked smiles with hakim.. No more casual talks with sumi.. No more EVIL EYE.. No more being manja with the makcik from the last stall(she loves me!!!).. No more "HAHA FREE PERIOD MT YAY".. No more bubble tea sessions
No more.. 4e2.. Ok current mood gembeng..
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever
&Vitamin C - Graduation (Friends Forever)
(Lyrics in order of preferance)
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Just like before, it's yesterday once more.
Ciao
Sheikha
