Y12:23 PM
You showed me how I can love. How I can care. How I can be loyal. For years. I've never loved someone so much in my life, cared for someone so much in my life. Though I always foresee what should happen, I neglect what my heart tells me. My friends said I should hope. So I have learnt that one should hope because it makes him/her happy. Though my mistake was to think of the implausible. I did not regret telling you how I felt. In fact, I felt great and brave. I felt like I was the couragest girl in the world. Though I knew there were many to risk, I am glad you saw it in a brighter way. As such, I have learnt. I have learnt how one-sided love when forced to die is great because therein lays great friendship. Going through four years of it had been great. Although there were times when I got very hurt, I managed to pick myself up. Thus, I have learnt. For years I had to hide them feelings. For years I had tried to put you aside. I tried. Now, I do not see any reason why I should keep trying, why I should keep fighting. Thus, I have learnt. I won the battle, not that I have not. I proved to myself there is so much more to me than just being blithely unconcerned over this matter. Though I've always hoped things would go the way I want them to, I know they won't. Thus, I have learnt. In movies, she cries knowing his heart is already reserved for someone else. The only difference is that I never knew she would feel that bad. Thus, I have learnt. Though I hope this will be over soon enough, it had been great. Now, I am looking forward, to a deeper meaningful friendship we have made.
P.S I love you.
