Y10:44 AM
so much happened.
why are you doing all these to us? dont you know its actually ruining your life? what is happening to you my old friend. what is happening. youre spreading untrue messages to everyone and im treated differently now. dont you know that it sucks so bad? just what is happening to you my dear old friend. youre hurting my buddy, dont you know that? youre hurting almost everyone i know, everyone whom i care. youre influencing HER, and her hatred for THEM is growing slowly .. plus, shes now convinced that the untrue message that you spread is actually true.
dont you know that youre not only lying to me, but to yourself? dont you know that youre not only lying to others, but yourself?? why are you doing this, honestly? many are hating you, dont you get it? i dont want you to be hated cos i feel its just not right. i keep putting myself in your shoes but ive never found out the
reason to all these lies. why are you pretending that everything is OUR mistakes. the root to ALL the problems will eventually be you. why are you hurting yourself? why are you trying to create problems for yourself????
ive talked to you, but i think it din really had any impact on you. you just stared blankly at me then boom, its settled. really, i dont think stuffs settled yet. you hardly speak up, even when SHE talks to you.
i wont allow you to hurt my dear. i wont. she has been my good friend since god knows when and i share tons of stuff with her and theres no fucking way in which i can let you hurt her.
no. fucking. WAY.
so dont you dare lay a finger on her i tell you. you and your new .. friends. my patience is running out and im supersupersupersuper close to just, shout scream smack everything. at you. so please, do not cross the limit or i will bite.
syazana, dont worry about him blaming you whatever shit, i think thats part of.. an act. rabiatul sweetie, we're in this together. and i'm by your side, trust me. and to those who are facing the same shit, we're in this together okay.
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i was so angry.
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school was, okay. we had a meeting after school. ncc thing. discussed and all. then rabee, lina, amelia and me set off to get the ncc rod stuff. lol, shared so much stuff. our views and all. yeah, theyre a bunch of nice people actually.
my legs are killing me and ive not gotten ready my ncc uniform for tomorrow. i really hope it rains REALLYREALLYREALLY bad tomorrow so that our napfa 2.4km running will be cancelled. please oh please let it be cancelled.
err,
im off.
love,
shakie
