Y7:22 PM
OK
I'm overwhelmed about certain things.
Firstly, it's ridiculous that there is someone who is agitated about the fact that abee blogged about her happiness. Hmm. YOU AND I know that she's put in just so much effort to become what she dreamt to be. Thus, the rank.
It's just so bloody clear cut that those who aren't happy with her about her getting the USM rank, are well, JEALOUS. Hey, come on lah. I'm not even a staff sergeant, I KNOW. But I do not get jealous about those who are higher ranking than me. Yes, I am quite disappointed in myself that I haven't tried hard enough to be one of them but really, JEALOUS? Ok, you see. WHY do you get jealous in ther first place? THEY'RE BLOODY GOOD LAH. SO WHY BE JEALOUS.
Omg.... I'm not supporting her just because she is my friend. But I'm just being a normal human. YOU WILL BE JEALOUS OF SOMEONE WHEN THEY ARE BETTER THAN YOU.
Tsk. Abee, no worries? You and I know that you DESERVE that rank. So, much love okek? Muahh!
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Ok next. Farhanis Ahmad. What THE hell were you thinking when you blogged on Friday, THIRD OF MARCH?! UGH.
Nis, you cannot bring yourself ANYWHERE if you condemn yourself. Cos when you condemn yourself, it basically means that you HATE/despise/LOATHE yourself. AND WHEN YOU LOATHE YOURSELF, YOU MIGHT AS WELL GIVE UP AND JUST, SHOOT YOURSELF DAMNIT. Havent I nagged enough for you to be positive and to constantly LOVE yourself hanis? Haven't I? I'm very disappointed in you tau hanis.
Why, just WHY are you doing this to yourself? When there were hatetaggers on your tagboard last time, we all stood up for you. We all did. The last thing we expected was for YOU was to condemn and discriminate yourself nis. If you discriminate and HATE yourself, what are our reasons for loving you? Nis, whatever you typed down there was a whole chunk of bullshit I had NEVER expected from you.
Yes you wanted us to know what shite you've created and stuff. But really, if you havent created up those SHIT, will all of us get to know you better? No. Things suck yes true, but we have to make do with it. Adjust. You told yourself AHH THIS ARGH THAT, but really, change yourself. WHY do you need to tell us that youre 'not human, but a dirty animal'. WHY. If you're as such, WHY THE HELL ARE WE FRIENDS WITH YOU HANIS WHY. WHY ARE YOU UNDER MY BESTFRIENDS LIST HANIS WHY.
I'm just VERY disappointed hanis. I really am. If you can afford to look down on yourself, how can we back you up? You've totally given up, calling yourself a piece of crap and what not. We can help you only if you love and believe yourself. If you're about to fall, we'll advise you to be careful. If you're already falling, we'll get together and we'll catch you. If you already fell and struggling to get up, we can help you up. But if you already fell and do NOT want to get up, we can't help you hanis. We can't. In this case, you've totally stooped so low. You've already lost faith in yourself. You cannot lose faith in yourself to go thru the obstructions in life. You can't.
If you're saying you're such a lousy person, why am I still here to catch you when you fall? Why is qib there helping you too? Why did lin tag on your board asking you whether you're ok? Why did amalina tagged saying that she's just a phone call away? WHY hanis, why?
You haven't realise how much people care for you hanis. You haven't. It's been a rollercoaster ride for you I'm sure. Yes, prolly you did some mistakes but everyone is entitled to a second chance don't they? Mend your mistakes. Don't OH SHIT I HATE MYSELF and then, ok, I do them again. NO. That's not the way.
Nis, you might have done shit to people. Many, little, whatever. You might have done shit to me for all I know. But really, whatever the matter, I sill care for you as one of my bestfriends ok? You were there for me when I was in doldrums. I won't let you continue condemning yourself. I'll smack you if you do that again.
Nis, do me a favour will you?
Start learning to love yourself? And appreciate whatever you have around you...
Starting with me. :P
Smile, will you? I love you ok farhanis ahmad? Muah!
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Ok with that aside, I shall start with my entry proper. OMG I SOUND LIKE ONE OF THOSE DEBATORS HAHAHAH AHAHAH AHAHHAHA HAHAHAHAH. So funny!!
Okek. Firstly, hahaa a little too late but, CT1 IS OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR BOHOHOHO. I've put in so much effort for all the papers. All I needed was extra extra time. I didn't have much time to revise and practise. UGH. But nevermind, what's done is done. Very anxious and nervous about my results. Hopefully they're OK. To begin with, I hope I get at least an A. ):
Difficult tho considering the fact that most of the papers were either OK or difficult. None was OH, CONFIRM GET A. Hmm.
Supported abee for the debate just now. They did well I was so proud of them. Hahahaha. I'm sorry I was late afee and lina. Lol, but I had to change to class T to accompany lina who was in sch uni. -_- But really, I cud have been punctual, OKAY.
The security was well.. tight? Hahaha, they actually checked our bags. Just in case we had bombs in our bags. Honestly speaking, will afee who was begging the guard or whoever not to show her ez-link carry a bomb? Will lina who was in BV sch uni carrying a bear bag carry a bomb?? WILL I, SHEIKHA HAROON WHOM MANY PEOPLE MISTAKEN FOR A CHINESE GIRL, CARRYING A RED STRIKING RIBBON BAG CARRY A BOMB? Hahahaha, aiyoh!!! And we got ourselves each a sticker!!!!! .....which we had to return back after the whole thing. -_- -_-
Hopefully our school wins. Really man. I WAS ONE OF THE SUPPORTERS OK. AND I GOT UP AT NINE JUST BCOS LINA CALLED TO CONFIRM THE TIME AND PLACE TO MEET OK!!!!! Hahahhaaha, they BETTER win. Hahah nolah, they're already winners to begin with anw.
WE ARE ALL CHAMPIONS.
Hee.
Heard that Ms Peh might get her leg amputated. OMG. HOW. CAN. THAT. HAPPEN. ??????. ????. !!!!.
I feel sad for her so much. I mean, WHO WON'T?!
I am so exhausted now I think I shall just lie down and watch tv. YAY
Ciao
Sheikha
